Pictures

Just felt like posting a few pictures of my little guys.

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Parker

Parker has been having some issues lately. Maybe it's middle child syndrome, or maybe something more. I noticed a spot on the back of Parkers head (which he's always had) has gotten much larger. The neurosurgeon had done CT scans, and the problem was always associated with him just having a flat spot on the back of his head. He also had hydrocephaly, and macrocephaly (large head). Although now I noticed this spot has started to protrude more than it once did. It is extremely noticeable when he is having his hair washed during bath time. So Parker took a trip to the neurosurgeon, and they ordered a CT scan. They think it could be extra fluid, which could be causing Parker's regression. We won't know anything until after the CT scan, and our next appointment on the 25Th. Until then I have to worry :o(


I just hope and pray that it is nothing serious. I keep wondering how things can possibly get worse than they already are.. well obviously they can get much much worse. I just want all of my baby boys to be healthy, and not have any health problems.

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Times are tough

I haven't been writing much lately, and really don't feel up to it. Brad hasn't been getting the hours needed at his job, and times are extremely tough right now. We have so many bills, and no money to pay them with. I have still been holding out hope that Brad will get a promotion, and have more pay like he once had. Instead we are struggling. I hate feeling this sense of doom. I look at our bills, and what little income we have, and I break down and cry. It took me forever to get my credit reestablished, and fixed. Now, I feel like everything will be ruined again, and we will be worse off than before.
Again, I will say I am so thankful I have such a wonderful mom. She has given us a place to live, and has helped us so much.

I also have to worry now about two of my dogs. And if you know me, you know how much I love my animals. My dogs & cats are my kids too, only they are covered in fur. Pebbles is my baby girl, and is coming up on 11. Her age is finally catching up to her, and that kills me!! I hate knowing she is getting old, and that her time here is getting limited. Pebbles is starting to get lumps all over, including one in her mouth. I have to make her appointment for her surgery to have some of the lumps removed. I am also opting to have her teeth cleaned again. The surgery is going to cost me a whopping $700. Money I surely do not have now. But I have a credit card, and my dog is worth it to me. It is just so overwhelming. I am just hoping and praying that when our vet removes the lumps none of them are cancer. I want to have many, many, more years with my beloved Pebble. I love this dog more than I can even tell anyone.
We also had a scare with my beagle Skippy. This dog has had so many scares, and seems to have luck. I noticed a lump inside Skippy's chest next to his front right leg. I thought it was very noticeable, but no one else could tell it was there. BUT... I was right and it was there. The vet was shocked that I noticed it since the lump is very deep. Well, long story short after two ultrasound biopsy's, we think Skip will be OK. Skippy's first biopsy came back as being possible cancer, but was such a small biopsy they were not positive. The second time, the test came back as being benign. Thank god!

Well, that's enough of an update for now. Maybe soon I will start feeling better, and life will get better. But until it does, I doubt I will be writing too often. I am not even sure how much longer we will have the Internet. I guess all I can do now is pray, and pray hard that Brad gets a promotion, and these hard financial times get better. If they do not... I don't know what we will do. Since we are already drowning in bills.

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It's been a while

I haven't wrote for a while, obviously. I just haven't felt up to it, and with Christmas I have been very busy.

Our kids had a good Christmas. They got everything they wanted, and Santa was very good to them. Bradley and Parker were really into unwrapping their gifts. Dustin was still tired, and just wanted to cuddle with mommy. I tried helping Dustin, and he wanted nothing to do with it. Once Dustin noticed his big gift, which was a baby 4 wheeler, he just wanted to play with that.

For Christmas eve.... I spent a lot of time wrapping gifts, and cleaning the house for company on Christmas. Brad and I also did something I didn't think we would ever do again...visit his parents. I did not take Bradley or Parker, but just took Dustin who sat on my lap the whole time. I figured I would be nice, and visited for the Holiday. I also wanted to give Samantha her Christmas gifts. One of which was a zhu zhu pet. That darn thing was so hard to get a hold of. I ended up waiting for about 2-3 hours to get one zhu zhu pet. Samantha seemed so excited about getting the zhu zhu pet though. The visit was pretty awkward, and I felt real uncomfortable. I do not mind Brads mom too much, and made a Christmas gift for her from my boys. I will say though, no matter what I will never again like Brads father. Everything Brad told me about that man, I believe. But, I won't go into that subject anymore.

Christmas day was grrreeeat!! My brother, his gf Brandee, and his children came over with my dad. Mom and I made dinner, I mainly made the dessert though. I made two cakes, one Christmas tree, and a snow man. The snow man cake was soooo cute!! My brother James played guns with all the boys and it was just so funny. Brad even got into the Nerf gun fight. They were all having so much fun. Dustin and AJ were even running around with their little guns shooting and making sound effects lol. It was the family get together I had hoped for. I had been waiting for our family to get together since James came home from Iraq. But CC had messed things up by telling lies, trying to break up the family. Now that all of that is over, things can start getting better. I couldn't have asked for our Christmas to have been much better. I am just so thankful for my 3 little boys, and my family. I love them all so much. Well, I will post some photo's later. Brad is making his chicken Alfredo tonight for dinner. I get a break from cooking, and Brad does a great job at making it!

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The Pictures

It took me a while to post these, but here they are.


Bradley smiling so nice.





Parker was a little ham. He has such a beautiful smile.




The best smile Dustin would give us.. a cute lil smerk.




My beautiful blue eyed boys. They all look so sweet. I love this picture.


Finally... our family picture.

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I'm 24

Yesterday was my birthday. We didn't do anything special, and it was just like any other day. Only I was an extra year older. My birthday present was the professional pictures the day prior. Which was something I really wanted. To have those pictures, to preserve the memories of my little boys being little. My mom also got me some nice ear rings, and a sweatshirt. My dad gave me a nice card, and money. I also did get a special gift from my oldest son Bradley! He had taken his magnadoodle (did I spell that right?) and took some wrapping paper and wrapped it all by himself lol. He came running to me very proudly, and told me "here's your gift mommy, it's a magnadoodle". He can be such a sweetheart.

It seems so weird to me now that I am older, just remembering how exciting it once was as your Birthday approached. Now... I dread it. I know I am lucky each year that I am alive to celebrate another birthday, but it saddens me to take that moment and realize how quickly life passes us by. As a kid I always wished I was older, now I know to tell my kids to never wish for that. I want to always remind them to enjoy being a kid because it doesn't last long at all.

Well again, I will post the pictures from our photo shoot soon.

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Christmas pictures

It's that time a year again, and our family tradition continues. Each year we get our family photo taken. It is important to me to have those memories. I have family photo's from each Christmas since Bradley was born. Our family sure has changed so much. We all look so much different. The boys really change from year to year, and are getting so grown up.

This Christmas things are already different from the previous years. Bradley and Parker are very into Santa, or as they call him "ho ho"! Bradley & Parker made a deal with daddy that they would smile for their pictures, and in return they would get to put up the Christmas tree that same day. So, Bradley and Parker "decorated" the Christmas tree after mommy & daddy put it together. The Christmas tree is pretty interesting looking now. I told Brad that once the boys are sleeping I have plans of redecorating the tree. It's really cute how hard Bradley & Parker tried to decorate. I gave them lots of praise, and told them what a beautiful job they did... although all the decorations are all in one spot, on one side of the tree.

Well anyway, I will post the pictures tomorrow. They all turned out so nice. Dustin's pictures weren't the best, but we did get a tiny smile from him. I was really disappointed he wouldn't smile. But Bradley and Parker made up for Dustin not smiling. They did a wonderful job, and were so pleasant. Bradley and Parker even made a little friend at the portrait studio. They were running around together, and playing catch with a football. My boys have always been so shy, so it was nice seeing them come out of their shell and play with other kids.

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