Times are tough

I haven't been writing much lately, and really don't feel up to it. Brad hasn't been getting the hours needed at his job, and times are extremely tough right now. We have so many bills, and no money to pay them with. I have still been holding out hope that Brad will get a promotion, and have more pay like he once had. Instead we are struggling. I hate feeling this sense of doom. I look at our bills, and what little income we have, and I break down and cry. It took me forever to get my credit reestablished, and fixed. Now, I feel like everything will be ruined again, and we will be worse off than before.
Again, I will say I am so thankful I have such a wonderful mom. She has given us a place to live, and has helped us so much.

I also have to worry now about two of my dogs. And if you know me, you know how much I love my animals. My dogs & cats are my kids too, only they are covered in fur. Pebbles is my baby girl, and is coming up on 11. Her age is finally catching up to her, and that kills me!! I hate knowing she is getting old, and that her time here is getting limited. Pebbles is starting to get lumps all over, including one in her mouth. I have to make her appointment for her surgery to have some of the lumps removed. I am also opting to have her teeth cleaned again. The surgery is going to cost me a whopping $700. Money I surely do not have now. But I have a credit card, and my dog is worth it to me. It is just so overwhelming. I am just hoping and praying that when our vet removes the lumps none of them are cancer. I want to have many, many, more years with my beloved Pebble. I love this dog more than I can even tell anyone.
We also had a scare with my beagle Skippy. This dog has had so many scares, and seems to have luck. I noticed a lump inside Skippy's chest next to his front right leg. I thought it was very noticeable, but no one else could tell it was there. BUT... I was right and it was there. The vet was shocked that I noticed it since the lump is very deep. Well, long story short after two ultrasound biopsy's, we think Skip will be OK. Skippy's first biopsy came back as being possible cancer, but was such a small biopsy they were not positive. The second time, the test came back as being benign. Thank god!

Well, that's enough of an update for now. Maybe soon I will start feeling better, and life will get better. But until it does, I doubt I will be writing too often. I am not even sure how much longer we will have the Internet. I guess all I can do now is pray, and pray hard that Brad gets a promotion, and these hard financial times get better. If they do not... I don't know what we will do. Since we are already drowning in bills.