Another baby

Today I sort of got a dose of reality, and how quickly time is going by. I know I am only 24 BUT I do have fertility issues. My OB was shocked that I became pregnant with my 2ND son, and then again with a 3rd. I now have fibroids(spelling?). My brothers girl friend today had to go to her Dr. and now at only 29 needs a hysterectomy. She started out with fibroids and now has endometriosis. That is what I was told anyway... But I am really afraid that if Brad and I do not have another child soon, we never will. Brad has wanted to try again for a girl for some time now. I have been afraid too. I really love spending time with my 3 boys, and enjoying them while they are still real little. Dustin will be two already, and this is the longest I have gone without being pregnant. It just really saddens me to know this will be the last time I will be pregnant. I can not have any more children after my next pregnancy. I am only 24, and I don't like knowing that this is it. No more kids. I love kids, and I would love to have a huge family. Because of my C-sections it just isn't possible; and that kills me.

There is so much going on right now, and now this is on my mind. It is always something. I am really thinking I need to make the decision to start trying for baby # 4. I just hope this time it will be our long awaited daughter. I feel so crappy right now.